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About

There are many ways I could describe myself… yogi, writer, creative, intuitive, loyal, introvert, investigator, seeker, honest, Libra, highly sensitive, lover of books, wine drinker, passionate about animals, indecisive, opinionated, sarcastic, hater of baby corn and small talk...

But more than all those things, I am a survivor. I have survived panic disorder and agoraphobia. I have survived a poor body image, a fat phobia and anorexia. I have survived low self worth, the need to please everyone and a crippling case of perfection. I have survived. Sometimes I have to still remind myself of this. Especially on those days that I still want to run from my own shadow. But I realize now, that healing can only happen by building a friendship with my darkest self, willing to sit with her in the pain and the darkness.

She is teaching me that my continuing on, despite the struggles, that I am stronger than I ever thought possible. Shining the light on my shadow has allowed me to peel back the layers to reveal the truth that  I am a  goddess, a warrior, a fighter and my own goddamn hero. I can almost remember who I really am. Oh, sometimes I still white-knuckle it, sometimes I fake it, sometimes I can barely breathe. Sometimes, I get in my own damn way. But I continue to survive. I continue to  carry on…

 

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